Monday, December 25, 2006
Yesterday I dreamt that you were still alive and running around the house. I dreamt that you were laughing and smiling and shouting and crying and giggling and calling out my name and calling me out to play. I dreamt the most beautiful dream and woke up to find the grim reality still existing. I woke up with tears in my eyes. I woke up trying to find you. I woke up alone in the house. I shouldn't have even bothered waking up. I miss you. We all do. But I know that you're in a place that's so much better from this less than perfect design. Now you don't climb window grilles and cabinets anymore. Now you climb the clouds and the stars. You're free now. Just as you always wanted to be. Free.
I beg you God, tonight, please bring me peace. I want to sleep forevermore with dreams of him still alive with me. I beg you God. I'm tired. I still don't understand why he has been taken away. I'm tired. And I just wanna go home.
I'll remember you forever cause I could never forget just how much you meant to me. It's been awhile now but yet my heart still bleeds. I long for the day when we can be together, as one. As it was. As it should have been.
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